Friday, July 31, 2009 2:44 AM
31.07.2009
I'm going to be myself again..
stuck inside my own darkness..
I'm going to hide myself from reality,
so that i could stay in my happiness..
I'm going to run away from responsibilities,
i don't want to be an adult,
I'm going to be a naive kid,
forever, never wanting to grow up..
I'm going to cry all i want,
just as long as im sad,
I'm going to shout all i could,
so loud that im not holding back..
I'm going to be me once more,
It's just where i belong..
i'm going to take off all my masks,
everything including make ups..
I'm just gonna be me...
But being me isn't that fun either..
Cause i got bothered all the time..
I always wanted things to go perfectly,
though i knew things wont turn out fine..
I'm always trying too hard..
and trying too hard always suffocates me..
I'm always trying to make things right,
but things will always be different, you see..
I'm just a failure..
I am different from how you see,
I'm not the girl, so fun to be..
Do you know how it feels
to bring bad luck to people you love?
Do you know how it feels
to just make everyone hurt?
You think being me is nice..
because i do well in my studies..
you said you wanted to be me,
based on just what you see..
the kind of life that i have gone through..
you never even once try to understand..
you never even try to understand me..
and yet you call yourself as my friend..